photo taken when Ethan was only 2 months old and I had no sleep for 24 hours
I think many of you have came across on the tragic death of the 7-year old boy, GJAY. He came all the way from the Philippines to America for a vacation with her parents and sister. Like any other kids who came here for a visit, he was excited to see Disneyland. Just a few hours from arrival at the airport, the family went to stroll down Old Pasadena to grab some bite. While they were standing in the busy sidewalk, a car accidentally hit Gjay and his parents. Gjay was in critical condition, his dad in serious condition and his mom with minor injuries. After a week, Gjay died. His very loving Uncle, made a blog to honor him and ask for donations for their hospital bills too: http://www.gjaysworld.org, you can see the full story and media coverage in that site. When I read this, like any other mother's initial instinct, I hugged my son and cried. I can't believe that such an energetic boy's life can be taken that fast! I know accidents are accidents but everyone behind the wheels should be extra careful and responsible before hitting the road.
On the other hand, while I was checking on PEREZHILTON, I saw THIS VERY SHOCKING NEWS which leads you to the VIDEO of a two-year old being corrupted by her allegedly 16-year old babysitter with an 18-year old male friend by forcing the toddler to smoke pot! This happened in Ohio. The full video showed that the toddler was coughing so hard. This is a very disturbing news. Makes me hate addicts all the more.
For me, children are the most helpless human beings. They rely mainly on adults for care and responsibility. But with all these news going around harming innocent children, we can't help but be more worried each and everyday for our children. Let's all pray for Gjay's family that they fully recover from his loss and for this toddler that her health will be spared from the pot.
I woke up with 2 VERY BAD NEWS today! 1st, 3 opps expired on me not because I wasn't able to manage my time well, it was because of my stupid time conversion!!! and the biggest bad news ever---GOOGLE DROPPED MY very humble PR2 to ZERO/0!!! Yeah you read that right? both my livejournal and wifespeaks URL are now zero. I haven't even enrolled wifespeaks in PPP just the LJ URL, keeping in mind that google drops PR of those connected with PPP. But, our theories were very wrong! No worries google hahha! I established a good relationship with my bosses and they won't stop giving me assignments and moolah! So there you go mga kapatid, bilog ang mundo! May kanya kanya tayong palugit lol! I have another site which earned a PR3, but that one I remain an anonymous blogger because that's where I keep most of my rants. I have enrolled it with moolah making for a month and let's see what happens. *grins! Have a happy weekend everyone!
Image above was snagged from this site: READ THIS also for a very interesting insight on google dropping PRs.
I can't believe that looking for an apartment can be really taxing and can eat up your time. The picture above was supposed to be our future apartment only to find out last week that we can't move on May because the old occupant has extended her contract for another 6 months. It was the only vacant 2-bedroom apartment there. They were kind enough to return our security deposit in full, though. Now, we are on search again! But the big problem is hubby and I are so busy to go around and check on new places. Sigh sigh sigh. I just need to rant.
For the past nights, Ethan's sleeping schedule has been erratic. Blame it on the DST and change of season, 8pm na maliwanag pa! His naptimes were moved to 3 or 4pm. At night, he would sleep from 1am but it gets worst this week as he was sleeping around 3 or 4am. The other night, I tried not giving him a naptime so he would sleep early and would not be waking up in the middle of the night. So he did sleep early around 8pm. Titan and I were downstairs, I was finishing opps, while Titan was having dinner while watching tv. Around 11pm, I heard Ethan crying too loud and with bouts of sobs (this never happened before), I went up and let him sleep again. After around an hour, hubby was knocking too loud in between panting asking me to opened the locked door (i locked it accidentally), enough to wake up Ethan. He said somebody called his name from the sliding door to the sound of his dad. OH NO! I believed him, as hubby is never matatakutin. Then we realized, that it was March of last year that his dad gave up his battle on pancreatic cancer. Titan woke up his Aunt and Uncle and was telling his story over and over. I was getting pissed hearing the story because 1st: it makes me very very scared since most of the time, Ethan and I are left alone in the house even till 11pm and 2nd: Ethan was already wide awake at 1am! I am sure it was his dad who made paramdam to Titan and probably he also visited Ethan which explains his crying and sobbing. I am sooooo SCARED now that it would be my turn to feel his spirit. I remember the night he passed away, Ethan was laughing and giggling in his sleep as if someone was playing with him. So far, Ethan is the only apo who is carrying his family name. But please LOLO DADDY, not me, not Ethan, not Titan again, never ever please! I do not know what I'd do if I see you. But I promise to pray for your spirit always but please again, not me, lolo daddy! That night, we all slept at 5am as Ethan was very energetic already. So lolo daddy, you see you make us really puyat so please never do that again. We totally miss you but it's better we just reminisce our memories with you through your pogi pixs.
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scared - chants:who knows how long we love you...you know we love you still...nananana!
BLOGOSPHERE TO DOs:
1) Finished Bloghopping. I am already on the letter "K" of my blogroll, naku! Turuan niyo na kasi ako mag feeds, bloglines etc... LOL! Paumanhin even on a weekly hop, I can no longer cope my wednesday bloghopping commitment.
2) Complete my walang kamatayan Vegas Vacay entry, baka nga abutin na ito ng 2009! This week promise, I meant this coming week.
3) Upload photos on my Multiply, Fotop and Facebook accounts: Washington, Vegas, Send offs, Local travels, Shoots etc...And then make back-up CDs.
4) Launch my beauty blog. Wala na ngang glitch, di ko pa rin nagagawa.
URGENT TO DOs:
1) New Apartment, move. Utilities checking.
2) After checking apartments, look for Ethan's school nearby and enlist him in Pre-K 3 for September classes. (Yes we are 90% decided to put him to school)
3) Check with DMV for my driver's license!!!
4) Start packing.
5) Check with Strayer University (yep that's where I am taking my Master's Degree), what else I need to do.
6) Open another bank account here, this time joint account.
7) Make a list of things to buy for the new apartment.
8) T mobile, At&t, verizon etc...
9) marami pang iba naku!
With all the TO DOs listed above, this is one thing I would like to procrastinate forever LOL! (read: I'm Freaking out with the thought of DMV's Written and Actual Tests) I know I know driving here is a basic and important necessity! Hay naku!
But then again, that person might be too desperate to say those words to the point of even obligating and demanding then we have to understand and forgive no matter how hard it is and eventually face the consequences of someone else's irresponsibility. Giving is still the best selfless thing in the world. Again, no matter how hard this is for me, I will oblige and simply offer this to God.
Yesterday, Hubby and I made our late targets/goals setting for the year, everything was just as exciting in the list which include:
1) Completion of stuff in our future apartment;
2) Buying a car;
3) Attending our friends' wedding slash travelling to Chicago and Las Vegas;
4) Getting 1 designer bag for me;
5) Getting 1 luxury watch for him;
6) Him, starting masterals by end of this year;
7) Me, applying for a scholarship on April and eventually finding a very nice part-time job;
8) Filing some important residency papers by mid of this year;
9) paying it forward (in the best way we think, not through #10)
etc... etc...
and suddenly, he answered a very very sad phonecall kakainis! Panira ng mood.
Apparently, we have to include this in our goals for this year:
10)Paying someone else's DEBTS!!!!
o di ba ang saya saya! Because no one will! That's how kapal they are!!! Putting everything in "OUR" to-do list, they thought establising life here is easy, nakupo! Talk about tears, sweat and blood!!! Even if it is not in our responsibility, everyone thinks to be it's my hubby's o di ba ang saya saya talaga!!! It's not a menial amount of money, it's big!!! How could some people be sooo careless in terms of finances and how could some people be so passive and demanding!!! As I am typing this, I can hear my fingers almost smashing the keys in my laptop. But because of this, punong puno na rin si hubby and this is the last time he would be reaching out for them. All these years, all he ever thinks is them and finally napuno na ang salop. Pasensya, di po martyr ang asawa ko. Period. hay i feel relieved LOL!. Thanks for listening. Good day to all.
...and you know what else is the saddest part, the 1st installment will be taken out of my paidblogging earnings because all our other money are to be used for some MORE important expenses and this paidblogging earnings are extra income which is actually eh pinagpupuyatan ko! ang bait ko di ba.
>>>The reason for my less entries is I have been trying to sleep healthy meaning eliminating the insomniac in me. I have a recurring migraine caused by staying too late in the computer. As I have blogged HERE, I started a sleeping routine by sleeping at 9pm and waking up at 6am. But as predicted, I hate mornings and I ended up spending more hours in the bed! Sleeping early and not meeting my 0PPS requirement every night makes me cranky and doubles the migraine the following days. And so, I am back to my sleepless nights slash morphs into my insomniac being. Hence, the absence of bloghopping, but I promise to bloghop this week not later than friday!
>>>For some reasons, I have been helping hubby's Doctors-Aunts and Uncles slash our wedding godparents in their job search, they moved from Germany and Immigrated here. Unfortunately, both of them are so overqualified and they have been rejected by companies and universities for being very well-experienced surgeon and gynecologist. They have been using my laptop while I assist them in their online job hunt and this afternoon, they accidently tweaked some of the settings of my YM beta version(i think) and when I logged in, my YM just messed up. Only the YM vista is working but I just hate this version. So for everyone, who messaged me, I did not receive any. I'll try to download beta version again tomorrow. Hopefully it works!
>>>Lately, I'm just getting sick of all the networking sites, read: FRIENDSTER, MY SPACE, MULTIPLY, FACEBOOK (most especially). I don't know why, maybe nagsawa na lang ako. I feel it's very impersonal, I would still appreciate personal emails over testimonials and long conversations and hugs over looking at a friend's pictures. This Facebook is really getting into me LOL! I am thinking of cancelling my account. They have been emailing updates and friends requests, dati wala naman. Siguro dahil magdadalawang buwan na akong di nag checheck. I was hesitant to log in this morning coz I might be traumatized with the requests, and guest what, when I logged in, I got 521 requests!!!! And you have to ignore them one by one. MAJOR CHAKANESS!
>>>I so badly want to watch these 2 movies with my girlfriends back home, especially with my MG family. Movie life here sucks! boohoo! I miss all of you, sawa na ako manood ng DVD with Titan lol! I want girlfriends movie sidecomments naman and tsismisan after. Uwi na ko lol!
>>>and lastly, I have re-watched the reruns of ANTM Cycles 1-9 to get ready for the Cycle 10 which will premiere on Wednesday, February 20 woohoo!!! I missed my photoshoots everytime I watch ANTM. Hay naku! Senti senti. Read more as I blog it HERE!
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curious
I was having my usual rounds of bloghopping of my favorite SIKAT blogs. Then I saw this in The Baghag Blog! Oh my gulay, nahulog ako sa upuan ko. This got to be my perfect LV bag collection. A Something Purple LV collection lol! I mean, this was made for purple, lilac, lavender, violet-lovers like me. JUST US! Hay naku! And it's available in our very on LV GREENBELT store! bilib na ako sa fashion sense ng Pinas! Angat talaga! If only I have the money waaahh! Kahit yung wallet lang haha! Jane , paki-ask mo naman how much please just for my curiosity's sake lol!
the fire scene
the aftermath
ang salarin!
Lesson learned: never will I cook Barbeque in my entire life AGAIN. I swear!
Goodness gracious!
- environs:my 2nd life. lol.
Despite the long day I had today, I was so excited to start doing my opps line-up as soon as I got home from work. So I checked my email, and guess what I found, an email from a paypal hacker! I know I have 1 unverified bank account listed in paypal so when I got this, I really thought it came from PayPal. I clicked the site but then Norton blocked it and warned me that it is a phishing account! BIG THANKS TO NORTON! I checked the sender's email, it didn't came from Paypal! I was chatting with joy at that time and she told me that she too was almost a victim of these paypal hackers about 2 weeks ago. Muntik ng malimas ang pinaghirapan ko lol! To my paidblogging buddies or anyone of you out there who has a paypal account, please please verify the sender's email address 1st before logging in to your paypal account. The official email address of paypal are usually with a @paypal.com (ex: service@paypal.com, admin@paypal.com etc...). Here's a copy of the email I got from this phishers/hackers who almost got me! Hay naku! DON'T CLICK THE SITE INDICATED IN THEIR EMAIL.
PayPal Corporation <suport@verizon.net>
to
dateDec 12, 2007 2:59 AM
subjectAccount Information
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Dear PayPal Customer ,
This is your final warning about the safety of your PayPal account. If you do not update your billing informations your access on PayPal features will be restricted and the user deleted. This might be due to either following reasons:
- A recent change in your personal information (i.e. change of address)
- Submiting invalid information during the initial sign up process.
- An inability to accurately verify your selected option of payment due an internal error within
our processors.
Please update your PayPal profile in order to restore your online access:
http://www.macropetsa.com.ar/icons/secur
If your account information is not updated, your ability to use your PayPal account will become restricted.
Thank you,
PayPal Billing Department
I am in contact with one of the paidblogging sites I joined. I was wondering why I don't receive as much opps as my blogging buddies do and this was their reply: (and so I thought my page rank was low, nah! i was wrong! =()
Hi emillie, There could be many reasons for this. The first being that a great deal of our advertisers segment out users with LiveJournal accounts. The second could be if the adv. is segmenting for Alexa, because you have a LJ blog you have no Alexa score. We try to put out opps that have as little restrictions as possible yet, there are not many that come our way. We have many more coming out in the next few days though, Just keep checking back in and see what pops up. Hope this helps. Scott
Now, I'm thinking of creating another blogsite in blogspot which I don't want to as I've got my hands full with other things and it would be hard to maintain two accounts. But if it would mean more paid blogging moolah, why not? Let's see.
Another bad news is: Two weeks ago, Titan's family announced that we're spending christmas in New York (dec22-29), they're going to use their time sharing in one of the hotels there. I was really excited but when Titan and I talked about this last night, we decided not to go. He's barely new in his job and although he has vacation leaves, he knows that it's the busiest time of the business and don't want his boss to be left behind. And of course, we have to save more money for our future crib. So, I guess I'll have my white Christmas here in Virginia.
priorities, priorities.
I had my 9-inch birthday haircut after 8 months of not visiting my favorite hairstylist, Ziggy of Toni&Guy (6750/Crowne Plaza) now transferred to Mary Pauline in Forbes. But, I find it too short and parang i don't like it boohoo! I'll stay insomniac till my hair grows longer again. I'll post more about that on my birthday entry.
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My sister-in-law, Ava and I were having our usual anything-under-the-sun chat the other day and she was right when she said that it's hard to lose weight when you're nearing 30s. I lost a lotta weight lately, but the post pregnancy tummy flabs are still intact! =( I try to do 200 crunches every single day but they're still there, sticking with me forever. hay.
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Thanks to my MG family for the wonderful NYFD treat and chikahan, also, for the Fino passport holder gift. Lavet!
Bon weekend everyone! I'm just effing tired to post a longer entry now. toodles.
Sa mga nadelete no hurt feelings ok? Sometimes I (re)add the deleted ones when I feel like I want to be their friends again on my next clean up.
Labo ko!
Sorry bored, walang magawa at di pa rin ako inaantok.
I'm still up at 606 friends though, hahah.
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nada!
When is the season 4 of Grey's Anatomy coming out? Here and in the US? Can't wait wait!
After watching Highschool Musical 1 the Movie, I've been hooked eversince really. Just imagine my anticipation for the season 2 which premiered last Sunday. Good thing coz my son loves the grooves to bits so we watch it together. He's a dancer. Can't wait wait wait for the time when he tells me that he'd be trying out for a part in theatre plays like his mom, which I know my husband will be very against about! LOL!
...and remember Familiarity Breeds Contempt! So accept accept or stay away. =P
...are my two most favorite words at the moment.
I want to watch this:
and this:
Anyone could be my friend or date, just buzz me.
I'm open to new friends as well.
I effingly need a movie date RIGHT NOW more than ever.
Can a 2-year-old boy be my date? Do you think he'd sit still in 2 movies straight?
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jaded - chants:BURN
inhale, exhale, breath in, breath out
i am mad, i am furios, i am effingly tired of you!!!
"Love is NEVER an obligation, there is no such thing as payback time!" get that?!?!?
Well you see, i'm sick and tired of you, really tired!
Stop whining, stop regretting the things you've done!
Move forward, move on!
It was sooo like 30 years ago!!!
Damnit!
Count your blessings please!
You have sooo much more than your siblings have.
What else do you want?
You even have your secret love by your side.
For once, please act like a real matured adult,
Like a real role model.
Stop controlling the people around you.
Stop influencing them.
Stop being a god damnit self-righteous lil fella!
Stop telling me who are nice and are not.
Just stop your cold treatment!
You are nothing but a stuck-up-full-of-misery-and-blame-it-on-o
Nobody did this to you, you tell us that you did that one act
out of a very difficult circumstance
and you've been left with nothing but this as your LAST choice.
Just STOP!
I'm tired of being your shock absorber!
I'm tired of making you happy all the time.
I'm tired of adjusting to your mood swings.
can't you see i'm such a sponge!
can you be a little more sensitive.
You are not God, you cannot judge people.
You are not always right, don't blame anyone with what you've become!
Your life is your own project.
I'm trying to be good here but you keep influencing me.
you keep controlling people.
Unconsciously you are.
So just stop.
Stop being needed, coz you're not needed.
Stop being indepedent, coz you're insecure.
Show love and you'll beget love.
Forgive, forget and move on.
Love yourself, so you'll be loved!
And most of all cry or scream if you want.
Help yourself please!
For someone i really hate at the moment!
Gosh! i'm so relieved! This is a good release.
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angry
please behave. please. please. please.
Why do people pretend? Why do they lie?
I'm sorrounded with them, with a lot of them...
I am so naive, I should have known better.
Like I always say, "I HATE PRETENDERS AND LIARS!"
But I ain't any better in detecting one!
It's not too late, it's never too late.
But, I guess, I failed and I thought I have been very careful
in trusting people, in investing emotions...
Well, life is a process,
A path to learning.
And this one, is just one of the common mistakes of life.
I SHOULD MOVE ON.
And as quoted from the movie: My Bestfriend's Wedding:
"This too, shall pass"
And like Stripe always tell me: "Just shrug it off"
I WILL...
and GOOD RIDDANCE TO EMOTIONAL INVESTMENTS!!!
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angry - chants:Louis Armstrong's What a Wonderful World